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For at least the past week, something has been happening. My very positive, happy demeanor has been deteriorating. Anger was inwardly building. Even on weekends,spent with my loved ones, I felt sad and depressed. I couldn’t shake that awful unhappy feeling, I couldn’t get out of it. I brushed it off, as I do, because that is not me. I am not like that. Every night, I have had dreams. Dreams where I knew there was a message trying to be conveyed. I wrote them all down when I woke up. Then two days ago, around midday I started getting major headaches. I never get headaches!
I started excerising in the past week, which provided an immediate happy effect yet soon died quickly after. I was clinging to anything and everything to try and stay in the happy boat but as soon as I left that space, my mood quickly returned.
So here I am 2.14 am in the morning. The second night this week I cannot sleep, when I was thinking how angry I was about a certain situation and then I realised how instead of blaming that person I should actually look at myself. I woke up and googled, how to release anger and found this excellent article for women: http://www.pmscomfort.com/pms-pmdd-symptoms/pms-pmdd-anger-management-techniques-for-women.aspx
But I still needed something more, so I went on Youtube and found this excellent guided meditation video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pk0Jeqcv5Q8
I took a notepad and pen and as the meditation began I wrote down everything that I was angry about. Throughout the meditation, I felt anxious. I let go of tears in release, I felt absolutely calm and then vulnerable and I am so grateful. I released it all and know right now, I feel better already. That tomorrow, I will return to me and that makes me feel so good.
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It’s amazing how the body responds when dealing with built-up anger, learn the signs and deal with it immediately, to return to you. Sending you good vibes for the week.